wats on my mind at this moment..
im learning to love life again..
i have a wonderful boyfriend, who i just cant let go of no matter wat happens.
im scared to be alone
im scared of losing the ones i love

im in the process of loving myself, and being happy within myself.

i need a break from everything
i need some friends
friends who i can talk to on a regular basis.
friends who i can rely on being there for me when most needed..
theres friends that i have known for years.. and i want to meet them so bad.. but i cant can i!! lol

im just tired..
im tired of thinking all the time,
im tired of being paranoid all the time,
im tired of being scared all the time.

just over it all....
ugh
i dunno wat to do anymore..
i try and try to get these thoughts out of my head
but they just still tickle at the back of my head!!!

hrmm
any ideas anyone... lol

major mental blank now...
over and out...